“Words can break someone into a million pieces, but can also put them back together. I hope you use yours for good, because the only words you’ll regret more than the ones left unsaid, are the ones you use to intentionally hurt someone.”—Taylor Swift (via creatingaquietmind)
I always have decisions to make. Big & small, important & non-important. It’s amazing how when you take a step back from life, look at it, and realize it’s not important like you once thought. Certain things/people/memories that at one point you thought meant the world to you, all become irrelivant when you place it in perspective to your life. Visiting my family in Oregon has been a life changing & annalyzing experience for me. I always am with my family, but this time however, we all gathered to celebrate an extordinary life that had left our earth. My Uncle Ralph was such an amazing man. He lived his life every single day like it would be his last, down to his very last breath. Not many people could lay on their death bed and know that they did every single thing that they were meant and made to do in this tragic life. He did.
Being with my family made me realize just how important these people are in my life. I once thought that those decisions that stressed me out were the things that would decide my life, but I discovered I was very wrong. Those are not the important things. The last breaths, every moment shared with family together laughing & crying…those are the important things. Those memories and times help you to make those decisions for the absolute best, not because you are guessing or hoping you are making the right decision. These memories make you know. It feels so good to know. I haven’t “known” in a very long time. I know I am moving to Oregon. I know it’s where I belong. I know that California was a lovely place to grow up and be for the first part of my life, but now it’s time to move on. I know that I will be best friends with those that I am leaving behind. I know that it is time to move on from those that continuously hurt me. I know it’s time to leave those people that make me think they are really my friends. I know it’s time to discover a new part of my life. I know I want to be closer to my family that has the strongest, truest relationship with God that I have ever seen.
I am so blessed to truly have the best family in the world. Not everyone can say they have a family as huge, immense, and close as the family I have. I would not trade one thing for the world.